Sunday, June 30, 2013


It's been a while since I've made time for my blog!
Here is the short version of the past couple of months:
We are back Home!
I'm feeling great most days.
Lifestyle diet changes resulted in 20+ pounds weight loss. YAY for side effects of a healthy life!
My studio is coming together!!
My creativity is in full swing, and most of the nights I intended to update here I ended up painting instead.
As soon as there was room the boys and I broke in my studio with a super fun messy paint party!
It thrills me beyond words that they love spending time with me here.

Orin helped me paint a background for some of my favorite lyrics that I wanted on the wall.
He loves seeing what he helped with hanging up.

I have a large wall for all of the work I have from my beautiful and talented friends.
This is a piece by the lovely Jessica Brogan.

My elephant corner... It's a thing. I cannot help it.
I am completely in love with elephants.
They continue to show up in my artwork.
At the beginning of June I took a tour of Two Tails Ranch
This is Luke.
He paints.
He totally stole my heart.


I have quotes and lyrics and my favorite sayings all over my space.
Orin helped me paint this background on a box that I received art supplies in.
Paul Simon 'The Boxer'
The first time I heard this song it was a cover by Mumford and Sons. I fell in love with it.
'In the clearing stands a boxer and a fighter by his trade and he carries the reminders of every glove that laid him down or cut him till he cried out in his anger and his shame "I am leaving, I am Leaving" but the fighter still remains.'
But the fighter still remains.
Those words rang true to me and been a mantra these past few months.

Meet Duffy.
The most incredible Alaskan Jack Russell ever.
Doubt me?
Follow @Debsea on Instagram and check out his own hash #duffyontheisland.
I am a super fan of a little white dog.
I have two autographed photos.
Not ashamed.
He and the squirrels get on pretty well and make for an adorable nook.

I have collected shells throughout my marriage.
David and I went to the beach on a full moon in October for our first date.
I thought it was time to get them out somehow.
Antique lace and ribbons- this display makes my heart happy!
Speaking of first dates
June 4th we celebrated our 8th anniversary.
This year has proven to be an incredible growing experience for us.
I have never felt more supported and loved.
Facing the suspected MS diagnosis brought our lives into stark relief.
We are living differently.
We love differently.
I am defiantly optimistic. I am going to live my life to the fullest and diligently maintain my body.
No matter how I end. I will always be grateful for MS.
I have learned more about myself, my marriage and the incredible power of the love and support of family and the release of putting a situation totally in God's hands with acceptance.
I am changed. And I am grateful. 

The Wild Women began during this time.
I was off balance constantly.
My distance vision was double with erratic eye movements.
Nothing was under my control.
I painted.
I was exploring dark places in my heart.
Versions of myself at war with each other.
My paradoxes.
This introspection has become a lifestyle.
A habit to listen and grow through things.

A grouping of my Wild Women.
And my favorite quote, by Van gogh.

We adopted two kittens!
The studio is a fun place for them.
Fritzie gets in on the painting sometimes too.
His tail was bright and beautiful for a few days after dragging it through the boys wet paintings.

I painted LIVE! at a local ArtWalk, it was such a fun night.
Three hours of painting.
Chatting with passers by.
They invited me back next month. So exciting.
I took a leap of epic proportions (in my book).
I signed up Serendipity, a retreat in Nags Head, North Carolina!
This was a, heard about it, *gulp* and registered within an hour situation. 
“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
I'm depending heavily on this.
I put the deposit on a credit card that was already above the zero balance we are comfortable with carrying because of the way this year has gone.
I have been painting my heart out.
I'm committed.
Non. Refundable. Deposit.
I'm going to be present in each moment.
Paint with the boys. Have more of the silly dance parties we have been having.
Focus on following the joy. Positivity.
And sell some of these paintings that I have piling up around here!
I'm working on Paypal buttons.
Accepting credit cards.
"I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of  depths and a great fear of shallow living." ~ Anais Nin
xo. Jess