Behold, the power of Intention!
This is the text I sent my mom last night:
"I have goals for tonight: Finish these two paintings and start one or two more!"
I WILL be stating goals more often.
Not only did I finish the two I planned on, I started and completed two little pieces that are fun and fresh!
'If I Could Paint You A Garden'
2'x4' (give or take) 3/8" Plywood
(Terribly difficult to photograph... I will re-post once I have it done professionally)
I started this piece Sunday night. I was surprised when I looked at my calendar how quickly I completed it.
It probably has a lot to do with the emotions I was working through. I've been turning into myself a lot as of late,
I am a FIXER.
Aries/Type A/Sensitive?
Whatever label fits, I just want to help people move past whatever pain they are in.
I've found myself shying away from interactions ...
It seems like every time I answer the phone, greet a friend there is something that they are facing that just IS.
Somethings cannot be fixed.
A marriage (or two or three) is over.
A disease is without cure and difficult to manage.
Hearts longing and working so hard to create a family.
Souls sharing the deep wounds from childhood.
There is no band aid.
No blue print to rebuild.
No map-quest to resolution.
I wish I possessed a magic wand.
But none of us do.
All I can do/be is sit with them in their pain.
Listen to their struggles, share my own.
But mostly. Listen.
'If I Could Paint You A Garden'
Is my hope and prayer for all the heavy hearts in my acquaintance.
'A Sense of Repose'
I've had this one going for a couple of weeks. I am glad to have it complete. I was happy to see the flowers loosen up a bit.
It's quite telling of the unfolding in my own life. Embracing truths.
Getting past the past.
On a lighter note~
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'Baby Rex' 12x12 birch panel |
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'Thom Rhino' 12x12 birch panel |
I pumped out these two fun pieces start to finish last night.
A real exercise in letting go and slinging paint without thought.
Liam loves Dinosaurs.
Orin loves Rhinoceroses.
Liam will be 2 in October and Orin will be 4 (!?!) in November.
These will be gifts for them. I intend to paint more FOR my kids.
We paint a lot together, but I want them to have things that I have created specifically for them and their passions at the time.
Last night was the most magical paint time I've had to date. I accomplished more than I believed I could.
I will definitely continue with the goal stating.
How has making or viewing art/music helped you through something that just IS, one of those things you just have to live through and accept?
For me, my life is pretty true to my dreams. But, there is this one thing... I have ALWAYS wanted a daughter, always seen myself with three little ones. I've seen her in my dreams at night. I've got my grandmother's cedar chest full of pieces of my childhood saved for her.
That will never be.
I have accepted it. Mostly.
I'm by no means passed the grief.
My heart will always long for her.
When I paint about it, I find room to breath.
A little more acceptance.
How about you?
Look forward to hearing your story,
much love,
~jess